So what is a blog for?

HAHAHA! I just read my last post...what a whiny little girl I am! HAHAHA!

Anyhoo, It's 1135 at night on a Tuesday, and I couldn't sleep, so I decided to blog. And as I was sitting here, trying to figure out what the hell to write, I got to thinking, "what the hell is a blog for anyway?"

Here I've been sitting since I started this damn thing trying to make sure that you all (both of you who read this) are entertained. Which I guess is part of the point. I mean, no one is going to read this if it is not entertaining. But I was also trying to give folks a sort of insight into who I am...ha!

I've decided that none of that is really what a blog is for. A blog is a space for me to put down what I want, when I want, and to write about whatever I want. It's therapy, and cheaper than seeing a doggone shrink every week. So that's what I'm going to do. Use this as therapy. Heh, so here goes...

Lately, and I mean extremely recently, I've been more and more unsatisfied with my life. Mostly it's been with my job, but there have been other pieces that have been bugging me too. So everything has been leading to just a really big dissatisfaction with all things in general. I've been finding more and more peace in just being by myself. Mostly on the motorcycle. Riding a bike is very theraputic for me. It's very technical. So I concentrate on what I'm doing, all the time. You are always putting some type of input into the bike, whether it's more throttle, lean-angle, brake or whatever...there's very little time to think about anything else on a bike. It's nice to just BE for those moments. I think that's why I love to ride so much. I don't worry about anything else on the bike. And I'm just tired of worrying about everything. I guess it's just a family trait to dwell on stuff. Grrrrreeeeeaaaaatttt!

So I think in retaliation against everything that is stressing me, I am becoming a hermit. I find myself talking less and less to the people that matter to me. Strangely, I have been talking more and more to folks who really aren't that important to me. I think it's yet another way of hiding for me. I dunno. And now, instead of talking to someone about everything that is bugging me, I'm writing it on a blog that no one reads. HAHAHAHAHA! Good Lord I'm sooooo passive aggressive! heh!

Well, I guess I should try to turn in. But I need to ask, does any one else do this too?